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Name: Marielos
State: New York
Metro: New York City
Birthday: 3/14/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I like reading, talking on the phone, goin online and having stupid conversations with my friends, watchin T.V., listening to music especially rock music, goin to the movies, just spendin time with friends and meeting new people....
Expertise: Hmmm....I'm not good at anythin cause I have no talent whatsoever
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/4/2004
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| This is not how i pictured this year to start, back in december i thought about this year and i was so happy because of what we were all waiting for...but now that is different, what we hoped for, what we were expecting is gone and there's no way to get rid of this pain...I need strength, i need someone to be here to help me through this because i feel so alone, but more importantly i need a distraction... i don't truly understand what just happened, but i'm afraid that tomorrow it will hit me and worse of all it will them more, and i'm angry because i'm here, so far away and I can't do anything, I can't make her feel better, i'm not there to share this horrible grief...and perhaps my classes and all the work i have to here will be able to offer me some goddamn escape from my thoughts and my memories and all those wonderful things that i dreamt about doing with her one day when i would have the chance to hold her in arms....yes, perhaps i will get that distraction, but she won't because she will be constantly reminded of what she lost, she will secluded in that freaking room alone with her thoughts and that's worse than anything i can imagine...All i want right now is to wake up from this nightmare, i can't concentrate on the reading i have to do for tomorrow, i will fail my quiz but who freaking cares about school right now...i'm sorry but today i feel like i lost my faith in you, because i prayed and prayed and begged you to be different this time, all I asked was for you to please grant us a chance to be happy again after what happened the last time, but you didn't listen when before you seemed to listen...What can i do now? i'm just crying and crying, and this is the only way to pour my heart out...I don't know what to do, not this again, this grief is so painful, god i am so heartbroken and i don't know what to do... | | |
| I have a question. What exactly are coincidences? Is it something that happens without planning more than once? What if something constantly happens, like 2 times a day everyday lol, is it no longer a coincidence? Is fate or whatever you call it, actually trying to tell me something, or at least forcing me to see something i don't want to see? I honestly don't know what to think anymore, i know all these questions might seem really confusing, and well that's exactly how i'm feeling right now: really really confused. I guess it's cause I try to have some control of my life, but when I seem to have lost that I get freaked out and can't quite understand it, especially now when i keep finding myself in these odd situations all the time.... Anyway, yesterday the Foo Fighters, Serj Tankian, and Against Me came to Binghamton, and it was just completely amazing. I will never forget it and the best part was that I got to share that experience with my best friends  | | |
| I have found my home, i have found the perfect group of people and i'm so happy that life is good =) | | |
| I swear i've become really lazy when it comes to doing work...I have this 3-4 page paper due in a few hours and i can barely come up with two pages...For the past week i've had plenty of time to do it, I've even sat down to start it but then i get distracted and listen to music and go online to just waste time...I just want this week to be over, I can't wait till 4:00 PM Monday when it will all be over, but more than anything I can't wait to go home Tuesday and be in my room ready to enjoy Winter break... Things here are getting interesting, it sort of sad to be leaving only because i've gotten so close to my roomate in the past two weeks...All we've done in the past week is see movies, go shopping, hang out at night with other friends, OMG it's so much fun who knew  all in all it's awesome, and the people I've met are just completely awesome lol...However, I am exhausted, this whole semester was a bummer, a lot of work and stress, and honestly i just need a long break already... So while i've been procrastinating, like I said i have been listening to music and I am now in love with Breaking Benjamin and Seether like never before...I just can't stop listening to them  You know I've become convinced that December is like the best month ever...Good things always happen in December, at least to me, it's weird but for the past 4 years it's always been like that...I tend to get good things during this month, i tend to be surprised and unexpected things just pop up... 4 days!!! | | |
| Last night was just absolutely crazy and amazing, i love college =) | | |
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